Was I "Awake Sleeping"?
I wish this had happened before I saw the neurologist on Monday.
I just finished up an hour long meeting, via telephone, with my colleagues at NIH. My ability to concentrate was severely hampered. I could focus in for brief points, then I would lay there with my eyes open, focusing on nothing, listening to the voices droning in my Blue Tooth, and I would dream that they were talking about something that they weren’t talking about and I would think of something I wanted to add to this non-existent conversation, then I would suddenly realize I had no idea what the hell they were talking about and then I would re-focus and get caught up and then the whole cycle would repeat itself. Whenever my name was mentioned, I would snap back into full focus. I didn’t close my eyes. I didn’t fall asleep. I just could not stay focused, and it felt sometimes like I was dreaming when I was wide awake.
I slept like a baby last night. So it’s not a lack of sleep.
Still, now that the meeting’s over, I feel sleepy. And hungry.
I wonder what the hell just happened…